There isn't a single time when I read, or even think about, the account of Abraham and his willingness to sacrifice - ok, that is just too sterile - KILL, his own precious child out of pure, unadulterated OBEDIENCE to God, that I do not shudder. I cannot even begin to imagine a heart like that. How do you get yourself to that point? The point where pleasing God is far and above EVERYTHING else?! Honestly, I will admit it is scary to think of getting there. In my weakness, I know I would have been bargaining and bantering with God over Isaac.
Fast forward to Peter. I love this guy. He really wants to follow Jesus. Wants to be 100% committed to him. He tries. Gotta love that.
Jesus asks him three times, "Do you love me?" Desperate because he DOES believe he loves Jesus, Peter replies with insistence. Jesus makes His point three times: FEED MY SHEEP. Pretty simple command. I am no theologian - but - my guess is that Jesus KNEW Peter's heart, knew full well that this crazy guy loved Him....but wanted to impress upon him how to demonstrate and SHARE that love.
ABRAHAM: Do I trust God enough to say, "Yes," to Him and step into what He may then reveal to be His will? Or...do I basically say, "Maybe?" Am I asking or expecting God to show me what His plans are for me and - after I consider the details, after I consider the COST - I will decide if I want to be part of it? Ouch. I wanna say no...I don't do that.
PETER: Do I love Jesus? Do I REALLY love Jesus? Does my LIFE say I love Him?
The world will not understand our radical obedience born out of insane and over-the-top love for Christ. Maybe that is because too many of us do not understand or fathom the Love that chose to stay on the cross for us. We do not understand the heart of the Father who gave it all.
I believe God recently taught our family a lesson.
Hard as it was...
"Will you be open to taking in this child? Will you keep him and love him for as LONG or as SHORT a time as I decide? Will you let him go when I say so? Or will you hang on so tightly and selfishly that you do things that do not honor Me in order to get to the end result that YOU think is best? How will you deal with injustices? Do you trust Me enough to make righteous decisions in small things....knowing I see the whole picture and trusting that I control every little detail and believing to the core of who you are that: God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them!?!" Romans 8:28
Is He teaching us BIG lessons in small, gentle ways? Preparing us for more? Harder stuff?
I know we have a LONG, LONG way to go and a LOT to learn, but....through tears, we released that sweet little child. He went back to a bad situation, but we have peace about it. Peace that can only come from God...a God who loves His kids.
My heart ached as I consoled a sweet 9 year old girl who sobbed for this little 'brother.' I assured her that God has protected him for his whole short life and He is not planning to stop now! I believe that. Knowing it makes feeding his sheep a joy. Not always 'happiness' - but better...pure joy.
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