Just one of those days (weeks?!)

My sweet boy...at about 2....with his first fish!

It is so much easier to SAY you will trust God than to actually TRUST him.  This past week has been "trying."
Our almost 7 year old has been diagnosed with scoliosis. First doctor said it is a 24 degree curve, they do not brace until 25 degrees and - given his young age - we should "wait & watch." Second opinion at a reputable children's hospital showed a 36 degree curve less than 6 months later and we were sent to get him measured for a rigid brace. After living the not-so-wonderful dream of 20 hours a day in a rigid brace, I started looking for other options. A soft brace seemed like a possibility - but - it is only used by chiropractors. (I wonder if I will live to see the day when chiros are considered part of the medical community - for real? Maybe not until less of them try to con people?) Anyway...after an exam and x-rays (to the tune of $600 out of network!), I left with the opinion that my son only has a 20 degree curve! Wait? WHAT?! I am not a doctor...but...I think a 16 degree descrepancy is too big to fit into the "give or take" margins...especially since patients are usually sent of a surgical consult at 40 degrees! Urgh.
When I shared this information with a young friend of mine in Ethiopia, he mentioned something about God healing my child. Hmmm? Me of little faith. That had not even crossed my mind. I HAD been praying - not every day - but, I had...and I believe others have, too. Did I think God could or WOULD take his 24 or 36 degree curve down to only 20? No...I did not claim in my mind that God would answer prayers in that way. In fact, I do not recall ASKING God to heal him...my focus was on finding the right or best treatment. (And, in case you are wondering, NO...my child did NOT wear the rigid brace often enough or long enough each day for it to have had any noticeable effect.)
So....what do you think? Gosh....what do I think? I think I need to re-examine my mustard seed (or lack thereof) and re-think how I believe I SHOULD be praying. Especially for the children I love so dearly.